Toast Ramblings Version 2? 5? 100?

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This picture is huge but a MS needs an image and this is how I feel about the VHL right now.

 

The past season has seemed to fly by but also drag on at the same time for me. I find myself in the same spot where I have been the past few weeks and that is wondering what to write with the clock ticking before the deadline and mostly just doing this to make sure that I don't fall behind.

Just last season I was going into the off-season really feeling like I was one of the top prospects available and I think Seattle picking me high in the first round really showed that the work I was putting into the league was paying off. I have had some dud players where I lost my interest and I'm glad that so far, it seems that is behind me. I am dedicated to turning Dawson into hopefully my best player on the league and putting the tarnished reputation behind me.

These last few weeks though or I suppose the season overall... has been rough to put it plainly. Compared to my rookie season where I was on a thriving team and the Draft at the end of the road, my excitement has really taken a hit. That's not saying anything against the league, Miami or Seattle but more of a personal thing I guess. I've put more free time into other responsibilities and between work and other things, I have been putting VHL on the backburner to panic about at the end of the week and I need to find a way to stop that.

I realized it was a problem when I signed on three/four weeks ago and realized that I had missed the theme week all together and blew an opportunity to get some nice uncapped TPE. That started a spiral of claiming welfare for a couple weeks because I was not investing enough time in the VHL to really come up with anything that was sparking my interest to write. That's probably why I'm opting for the diary style media right now because I'm waiting for something to spark me up again. Dawson will be making the jump to Seattle next season and I should try to be more involved in the Discord there to really give it a fair shot. 

I guess the point overall of this media submission is to force myself to think about why I have hit some sort of slump and to claw my way out of it. I know that I have the time to really make Dawson into something special (at least in comparison to my previous players) and I want to do whatever I can to help the teams that were willing to take a shot on me. It has definitely been a bit of a bump in the road this season but I'm looking forward to being a pro player now. Maybe it was staying back a season and not being able to spend any of the points I earned? Regardless, I'm not blaming anyone/anything for the recent lack of effort. 

If you read my rambling thoughts, thank you! Hopefully you're having a fantastic time on the league because it's special to see so many Discords thriving. Maybe I'll start there and we can get Dawson back on track.