Freedom's Just Another Word for Nothin' Left to Lose

[Gustav 6,415]

...which, yes, is a line shamelessly ripped from Janis Joplin, but I figured it's been applicable for me lately in both VHL and in real life.

 

For the VHL side of things: having nothing to worry about after I decided to rebuild about a season and a half ago was almost a relief. Obviously, I did my share of complaining about my situation, and I understand that it was 0% anyone else's responsibility to be nice to me about it, but I still let some trash talk get to me more than it should have and was letting my own thoughts get to me as well. After I sucked it up, admitted that it wasn't going to work, and kicked off the rebuild, I was actually a lot happier with the team than I was before--able to get back to appreciating our locker room and there to make it a more positive place in general.

 

For real life: anyone paying attention to the whiny wall of text that was my poor excuse for a .com article last week, or knows what I'm up to in general, knows that my semester ended last week and I'm now on (potentially my last ever) summer vacation. And now that I have nothing to worry about school-wise...I'm already bored! Even though I've actually been really busy the past few days, not having anything to take care of from a mental standpoint makes it feel like I've done nothing at all. I guess the main takeaway from both of these things is just to see what you can do to identify what exactly is causing the stresses in your life, and what may be affecting you without you realizing it. There's probably some good stuff you've just stopped noticing. 

 

I didn't intend for this to be another whiny wall of text, but I guess it turned out that way anyway. Apologies to those of you who came here for something actually interesting...but I guess that's what happens when there's no trivia (because as we all know, league history ceases to exist in the offseason ).

[Spartan 4,402]

There's just something special about being an openly rebuilding team. You appreciate the wins a lot more, shrug off the losses much more easily. I've definitely noticed that the focus is more on the people and in my case, testing out various things with very little at stake. I'm grateful that I was put into a situation where this was even possible, as coming in with super high expectations to make Moscow win now would definitely have stressed me out at a time I really didn't need more stress, that being my end of the semester as well. 

 

29 minutes ago, GustavMattias said:

And now that I have nothing to worry about school-wise...I'm already bored! Even though I've actually been really busy the past few days, not having anything to take care of from a mental standpoint makes it feel like I've done nothing at all.

Honestly, same to all points here. I'm realistically busier than I was at college, probably because I have more of a schedule now to avoid just lazing around, and now that I'm fully vaccinated and my friends are as well, we're finding more things to do together and in person. I was at a grad party on Sunday with some close friends and it was just really nice to be in a group of fully vaccinated folks, and able to just spend an afternoon/evening drinking and hanging out with a care in the world. Plus I've been productive in other aspects, so I just feel much better than the past few months. Working out of a basement still sucks though lol. We should play Town of Salem online again sometime