don't get why it bothers you now as its the same situation for the last couple of seasons
if you don't enjoy the league anymore, good, I get it. Just don't blame others and get along with the ''the vhl bores me'', which is also understandable considering your longevity here.
not so long ago, you had commissioning inspiration, so it's either you didn't get up from the blow or you are just unstable recently, which I think is the case
don't take it personal device, but everything you listed, with that attitude, you are part of the problem, and don't get me wrong, a lot of people are part of the problem