It's sometimes really very hard to find happiness. And being happy is so important in life. The whole point of this site (in my mind) is for people with a common interest in hockey to come together and have some fun on here. If it's stopped being fun, then you should feel no obligation to continue grinding out some of the jobs you do. You've contributed a fuckton of stuff in your time here. I think you more than deserve to take a step back and just enjoy the sims, building your player, and hanging with some the members here. Don't ever feel bad for a second about reaching out. What you wrote - I don't take as a cry for attention. Being open and communicative is just the foundation of any relationship, in a personal or community sense, and if it's a good relationship, your words will be met with the same sort of openness.
So yea, step down, step back, and hopefully that will make you fully enjoy the league again. We're all here for the same reason - because this shit is entertaining. Let's do what we can to continue enjoying it.