FrostBeard

This right here is the biggest truth. I have had 10 years of sitting on this and while when I was 18 it didn't even hurt that much, there was rationality that I knew it could happen as my dad was 3 times a week attending dialysis and I knew anything could take it over the line, not to mention something as devastating as pneumonia can be. As the years went by the rationality went out of the window and the pain started. Heck, the fact that there is still hate (I have to add this: hate is rational as my dad was kept in the hospital for 11 days and started to receive any medication or help on the 10th when he was critical and moved to another larger hospital. Doctor who was attending to my dad in the new hospital said that if he had been brought in earlier, things could have been different) towards his attending doctor in our local hospital exists is a reminder of that every day. 10 years and the pain remains and grows. I blame myself as well as I went to visit him and didn't press him to change the hospital and move even though it was clear that nothing was being done. So there is that. Time doesn't heal anything, it can help mask the pain with happiness of other things coming into your life.

1. The new season starts soon. What goals do you have for your player? Grimgor will lead the team to playoffs and get to be easily a Top 5 player this season. Pushing for an MVP! 2. Where do you see us ending up? Easily either a wildcard spot and dominate against NA teams. We have what it takes to do massive things. 3. Are there any other players or teams you follow? I follow noone, I am getting followed as I am Da Great Green Menace, Grimgor Ironhide. 4. Eggnog: yes or no? What is Eggnog? Is it when you nudge eggs? I am confused. 5. What was your favorite Christmas present when you were a child? Orc children do not receive gifts, but I had a fantastic opportunity to have a duel against a goblin spider rider when I was 3, he was crushed between my knees. 6. What Christmas traditions does your player have? I gift my photos to young hockey players so I can start a Grimgor Ironhide cult.

To be fair, I didn't think I will write about anything but here I am. Firstly, have to say massive thanks to all my 3 GM's up to this point, Sam, Spartan and Alex for being absolute beauties. Couldn't have asked for a better group of GMs to have for my first 6 seasons of Ironhide's career. Now, being back in Helsinki, it will be a season where I think Grimgor will have to prove he can lead a team. Previously, in Helsinki it was a tough situation as Grimgor would have been and remained as the 2nd Liner for a while and it was not my goal, while in Moscow the idea was to play Grimgor as the 1st liner just didn't work. Davos was different and I had a chance to be a part of the group dedicated to the development of the roster and bringing in the new generation of Davos faithful. Now that journey is at an end and Grimgor has just signed a contract with Helsinki. I am in a bit of an interesting situation as I have a specific plan and goals but it is clear that much of that will be hard to achieve. From the point that I expected Grimgor to be my best player yet and, it clearly is the case to the fact that I hoped to achieve more on individual award level. I do fully understand how many amazing individuals there are creating brilliant players so a chance to receive an award in VHL is a tough job. But all that said, I am very happy with how Grimgor has turned out, he is a dominant player, he plays strong physical game and has impressed me with really solid goalscoring. I do have some expectations still and wouldn't mind winning a cup but it is not a massive priority. Fully focused on Helsinki now, will have to do a lot to win back fans that previously hated my departure. On the other hand, have had a really chill time being away from GMing and have enjoyed not having a responsibility to check VHL things daily. Still get drawn back to ideas that maybe I shouldn't have quit D.C. but every time ideas like that surface they get put back into a box as that sort of commitment is not for me. Also, hoping to get back on the feet on the emotional/mental state. Have had a really rough time and this has echoed my feelings 10 years ago when in February, while studying in 12th grade I lost my dad to pneumonia. It is actually crazy to think that it has been 10 years and I feel empty, lost and more or less disappointed with my choices. Have been thinking that I need to change things massively but there is no motivation for that change to happen. I am not fully sure what my wish would be but I do not feel that my current job at the school is where I belong having more and more of a pressure put on me. It is not burnout, I find school work fairly okay, it is just all together difficult to move forward. Not even sure why I am writing any of this here but I guess I just wanted to vent somewhere. Heck, the trip to US I had couple of weeks ago was a lifesaver as it gave me a chance to reset. Oh well. Well, that is it.

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I love this.

My suggestion - teams just have to be better.

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