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Terrifyingly spicy.

Oh dang @Seabassyou're skipped. @Hooperorama make two picks plz

Holy Hell Philly is dominant. But Miami almost came back with two quick goals in the final minutes!! 6. Miami Marauders , Ryan Ryker 2 (Theodore Hoffman 3) at 17:407. Miami Marauders , Chicken Wing 2 (Cabe McJake 5, Martin Master 4) at 17:54

GTFO ROCKET wrong group haha

Groovy Dood scoring a goal every game. Groooooovy Goals # Player GP G 1 Timothy Brown (SEA) 7 6 2 Groovy Dood (DCD) 5 6 @a_Ferk comin 4 u

You gotta make a few picks, were up to round 4!

F so this is how you're catching up on me.

Yessss everyone getting into the podcasting game. Love it. Starting it now.

After three rounds, we are here: 1. @Seabass F - Thomas Landry II F - SS Hornet F - Valterri Vaakineinan D - Condor Adrienne D - G - Jimmy Spyro 2. @Hooperorama aka @fishy F - Mikko Lahtinen F - Dakota Lamb F - Jungkok D - Guy Saskamoose D - Alex Bridges G - AJ Krishna 3. @TTtheT F - Benny Graves F - Chad Magnum F - Jim Bob D - Latrell Mitchell D - Hugh Jass G - Jaxx Hextall 4. @PatrikLaine F - Patrik Tallinder F - RJ Jubis F - Patrik Laine D - Erik Summers D - Odin Omhdahl G - Raymond Bernard 5. @Matt thunder F - Kris Rice F - Kyl Oferson F - Ola Vikingstad D - Jeff Downey D - Victor Grachev G - Jacob Tonn 6. @bigAL (Group Manager) F - Lance Flowers F - Timothy Brown F - Luke Thornton D - Roque Davis D - Erik Killinger G - Stone Wolski

F - Lance Flowers F - Timothy Brown Back at ya @Matt thunder

Thank you so much for digging into this. Classic Muff. Always his fault.

FISTED ANALLY BY A CIRCUS MONKEY sn u bbed snubed snuubbed

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I'm partial to rabies but stopped using when I got too many penalties and a court date for some bs called "assault with a weapon" and "attempted murder".

1. @Seabass F - Thomas Landry II F - SS Hornet F D - Condor Adrienne D G 2. @Hooperorama F - Mikko Lahtinen F F D D G 3. @TTtheT F - Benny Graves F - Chad Magnum F - Jim Bob D D G 4. @PatrikLaine F - Patrik Tallinder F F D - Erik Summers D G - Raymond Bernard 5. @Matt thunder F - Kris Rice F F D - Jeff Downey D G - Jacob Tonn 6. @bigAL (Group Manager) F - Lance Flowers F - Timothy Brown F D - Roque Davis D - Erik Killinger G

@Hooperorama with two strikes... @TTtheTon the clock!

Does it really count when you’re the First Star in a L??

I was expecting a three game sim for DC after yesterday’s solo game... weird.

yes

Urgh rewriting sucks ass. I'll do my best to summarize. Believe or not, the first post was longer. Reality is a social construct, and identity is doubly so. Who decides our identity? Is it us, who lives with it every day, or is it the others that see it and live with it? I get that we try to not listen to perceptions of others, but when we're dead and gone, who else will carry on the memory of our identity? Identity is something I've really thought about deeping, because I've had many different (and conflicting) identities through the years. I've been the model-citizen, kid-rearing, law-abiding teacher, while also being the alcoholic party animal dope-smoker at the same time. I've been the two-steppin, dip-chewin, truck-drivin redneck while also being the bleeding heart liberal (yes, those are two mutually exclusive groups). It's caused a lot of internal conflict that took a long time and a lot of work to resolve. It's exhausting to be a different person to different people in different social worlds. My life felt very compartmentalized, and with all the conflicting identities, I didn't allow for much cross-over between worlds. I was terrified of something like a wedding where everyone from your life expects to come. How are my "not politically correct" hilla billy friends going to get along with my lefty city friends?! As my identities evolved and changed, it made looking back very difficult. There was lots of anxiousness and guilt-and-shame feelings about who I was and how I've left behind so many experiences and relationships that I felt I couldn't ever go back to. I lost touch with a lot of friends from identities past because I had evolved to such a contradictory place. I struggle to reminisce about times where I don't recognize myself, and to keep up relationships with people when I've evolved away from the identity group that they identify with so strongly. Sometimes, when I get back in those situations or with those people, I catch myself slipping back into those old clothes. Reflecting on those instances, it makes me feel dirty and "untrue to myself" that I panicked and took the easy way out instead of really "putting myself out there" and being myself. It's hard and scary to be yourself. It opens you up to judgement, and those judgements matter way more because they're about the true you. It's easier to put up those walls, to default to a persona that allows you to "fit in" even if it means behaving in a way that you might not agree with later. Identity can depend a lot on who you're with and what the expectations of the moment dictate. But if you wear that persona for too long, it does become who you are, and makes it really hard to take off once you realize it's not actually you. I really hope that everyone on here is who they are in real life. When there's a disconnect between who you are to yourself and how you act or present yourself externally, it's a recipe for mental disaster. You need to be comfortable with who you are, with what you do, with who you're around, because that's what life is. I really struggle with this idea of an "online" personality and an "irl" personality. In the year 2020, we spend so much time on here that it's not fair to separate our online actions from our "real" lives. When that happens, we see personality traits like the troll brigade or keyboard-warriors showing up. That's not cool on the VHL where we're a relationship-based community and interact with each other regularly. (It's also not cool on truly anonymous platforms like Twitter where you're mostly shouting to the ether, but that's a whole different space). This is a part of our real life. What we do here is who we are, like it or not. I would like to think that the people I'm friends with on here would also be friends of mine in the physical world. I also don't really want to share what I think or expect other people to think about me on here. It feels like just opening yourself up to internal conflict. I don't want to hear things like "That guy's delusional if that's what he thinks of himself" or "what a cocky bastard to see himself that way". I'd rather judge how others see me by the relationships I've built and the experiences we share. If someone thinks I'm a good guy, we'll probably interact with each other lots, and if they think I'm an asshole, they'll probably tell me. I have ideas of how people perceive me. I have ideas of how I want people to perceive me. But I've worked hard to develop this internal "locus of control" and derive my worth and value internally and not externally, so I'm not going to open myself to the opportunities for those contradictions (even though I bet you all think I'm just the bees knees). Cool thought experiment Gus. (And classic university student to start this off with "I didn't do the readings, but..." hahahaha)

omfg my novel of a response disappeared

Man, I want what Gus is on.

It's so good, I'm really happy with it. I'm even using it as like a general podcast feed - I've made a hockey sim and a cricket sim pod on that feed, so just a general "bigAL talks" channel. I haven't yet but I think it can even do the recording and editing in house.