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Something tell me it could be for a future YT drive excited for next week.

Good to see you @Thrash94

Wow. Going through this post is awesome and actually really makes my heart hurt/eyes water up a bit. I failed. I'm ashamed. I hurt over it. After 3 years of being completely smoke/nicotine etc free, coming up on 4 years, I failed. I started smoking again in July of 2024. Slowly, but it kept becoming more and more until basically I was back smoking. It's been a really tough year and some on me. When we first came back from Australia, I started working for a railway company. At the start it was okay, but quickly it turned quite toxic. The way they treated employees was terrible. Every meeting for management and leaders they'd say "hire fast, fire faster". They underpaid, the benefits and everything were shit. They were never accountable for their actions. I was miserable here. They always talked about strippers, drug use and partying (management...) and they covered up employees using drugs to keep them around. Constantly making penis jokes. My final straw was when a "tire technician" came to our location. They hit the ditch when I was about a kilometre away from the incident. Didn't see it until I got there. They blamed me for hitting the ditch (not shitting you) I looked at my boss and told him I quit and he mouthed the words "no". 3 weeks later I was gone to a new company. This new company was also a railroad one. I went here because my father worked here. His mom, my grandma, was battling cancer. Her and I shared a birthday of September 20th. She was my rock. She was my person. When things got tough, she was who I called. I listened to her advice because she was the kindest, purest soul. I was so lucky to have her in my life. July we went out for lunch. Quickly, she started to disappear. By September, she was living in hospice care. I remember telling her "I held on for you, please hold on for me) when it came to making it to our birthday. I held on to come out (lol) on her birthday, now please make ours. My dad and I were working crazy hours and days in September. It was so fucking hard on the both of us but we made it through incredibly well. On September 20th, our birthday, my father and I were on our 23rd day straight of work - each day ranging from 10-12 hours. I sat there with her. She was there but she wasn't. I told her I loved her. I would miss her so much and that I was so thankful for holding on to our birthday. As I was about to leave, she squeezed my hand. Super surprising because for days there wasn't much activity. 4 days later she passed away. My dad and I took that day off and then we were back at work the next day. My dog, Zara, had a bump form on her nose in July of 2024. We took her to multiple vets who tried multiple things for bacteria/culture etc. We kept thinking cancer and eventually, so did they. We wasted hundreds of dollars on antibiotics and what not - noting worked. As time went on, the lump changed. It went from a small lump like a thumb print on her nose, to transferring over to the other side. She sneezed more. Snored. Had issues breathing. It kept getting worse and worse. This dog is my girl. She's my best buddy and soul animal. She's incredible. Loyal. Smart. Brave. She listens so amazingly. Just the perfect dog. I see her and my kid and I was TERRIFIED of losing her. It killed me. I couldn't do fuck all. The diagnosing alone we were quoted at being 5-9k from CT scans, Biopsy, blood readily available, scopes etc. I lived for months just thinking "fuck, like fuck. What the fuck can I do? I can't sit here and do fuck all. I can't lose her". I always had the idea of the GoFundMe but I just didn't think it would work. Then In January, I guess I got scared enough of losing her to try. I called around to probably 50+ vets in the area and finally found one that offered everything at much cheaper for a bunch of reasons. I started the gofundme. We raised over 2,000 because of amazing people. We got her into diagnose FINALLY and everything is currently on the go.. shes on some medicine etc right now but it really seems to be working.. I think the whole process since July has costed about $5,000. When we got home from Australia and I got that first job back, I needed a vehicle to do the daily 1 hour and 10 minute commute to work, and the hour and 10 home every single day.. I bought a 2011 hyundai accent with 130,000km on it. Long story short, I take care of my vehicles but at about 160,000KM... the fucking transmission went and costed me another $3,500 and this was in... August.. so during all my shit with Zara, too. This was alsop on top of my brother getting into an accident in July and everyday on my hour and 10 commute to work, I had to leave early to drop him off at his own work along the way.. and then pick him up on my way home too.. My new job is just as toxic as the last one. The moment I get to work at quarter to 7, everyone is always complaining about the place or whatever they can think of. It's non-stop negativity from 7-330 or later. Idk. Just all day sitting there listening to "we cant do that" or "this wont work out" or "this is bull shit, fuck this, fuck that" blah blah.. Idk, guys. Idk how to explain it. It's depressing. It makes my brain hurt. It sucks so much going to such a negative place. Then, the management is horrible. We have a female mechanic who was sexually harassed (and groped) by a male employee. That male employee was removed from service and was terminated. Our LEAD SAFETY GUY, following the incident after a few weeks), took the persons name tag that was fired... and put it in her locker.. and he laughed and joked about it in front of us and the HR lady we had there... Our "CEO" or highest manager is constantly telling people to suck his dick, talking about penises and making those kinds of jokes. It's so strange.. so depressing and weird lol.. My relationship at home with my partner just isn't good right now. Maybe because of what I'm going through, but definitely because of who she is and what she does sometimes. I won't get into much here, but I'm struggling badly here and trapped. I feel lost. Trapped. Alone. There's a lot more. You get the point. It's been.. tough.. really tough and I just haven't gotten a break from any of it and my brains just so exhausted. I know, everyone goes through shit. Man, it just never seems to stop. One thing after another. It started to eat me away. I caught myself thinking a few weeks ago that "if I could just push a button that would shut myself and my brain off, I would heavily consider it". Not amazing thoughts, so I've kind of been putting in the work I guess. Lots of excuses and eventually I looked myself in the mirror and said I want to be better again. It might be hard but lets try. So today, as of right this second, I am 17 days, 17 hours and 36 minutes without nicotine, cigarettes etc. I guess just because you fail once doesn't mean you can't succeed. It's how we learn! It's how we grow. Thank you VHL for being an OUTLET for me at times.. Thanks for being there for me.. putting up with me when I'm grouchy. I'm sorry If I've been struggling and sometimes come on here with a short/shitty fuse.. Zero excuses. But know that I am always here for you. Despite my brain living in hell, my activity and loyalty to my roles as BOG, GM, Recruitment Head and more have never wavered.

What’s the Vhl Missing? Someone to Stir the Soup. Please don't read this. Theme weeks aren't the greatest and despite receiving way too many fun and creative ideas, we still went with a heavily mid one. Why do old people suck? We will never know (hey, THAT'S ageism. I'm offended!!!). I'm going to try and get this shit out of the way fast so I can go back to recruitment duties preparing for next week. This week, lots of people went with the biggest and baddest on the ice. I had a few ideas of where I could go for this. I was going to write a heartfelt media spot explaining my life over the last year and talk about the hardship/bull shit I've been making it through. A kind of "it's okay to not be okay, and it's also okay to be transparent about it, too" kind of article. However, I went a different route that will be easier to talk about. Moderation is a problem on the Discord server. Politics? Nope. Anything fun? Nope. Why? Because the way society is today, we bubble wrap everyone. If I say the word "jackass" even though it's just a word, someone will get offended by it and report it. Maybe I might say "The Edmonton Oilers suck dick" and all of a sudden they get butthurt over the word dick and they're reporting it. Did you know that the words: Fuck, Bitch, Dick and Pussy are NOT banned on the Discord server but for some weird fucking reason the word "jackass" is? How fucking stupid is that? Ban them all. Ban everything that's bad. Just checked after I wrote this article: Nazi is not banned. Nor is motherfucker, bullshit or bastard. I'm not one to sugarcoat shit, but wow, is the world changing. In some ways, it's honestly for the better. We're becoming kinder, more respectful - even though if you really thought about it with all of these changes - we're really not becoming any of those things. We force our beliefs and opinions on others and they have to abide by them or else my feelings are hurt, you're a JACKASS and a terrible person because you don't accept their views. Now, what's crazy about this is that it's been happening forever with religion and other things etc. I don't believe in god, never will. He's not real. Some glow in the dark figure in the sky somewhere up high didn't create everything. He's not still up there kicking back playing virtual reality earth. He isn't answering you text messages or responding to you on Habbo Hotel under the username "OfficialG.O.D". However, you believe what you believe I believe what I believe. We don't talk about it and move on with our lives. OR, we talk about it and can share one another's perspectives and not get butthurt because we don't align. Unfortunately, society can no longer do that. We need to make sure "everyone is comfortable" and it's honestly getting to the point where the world is going to look like The Hunger Games: Mockingjay shit where everyone is wearing weird clothes, have eggplants for noses, weird hair and I am now actually in fact a Bear now, blah blah. Aliens will finally come down and think Elon Musk and Trump are normal, lol. They will turn around and say fuck that. Rant over. Society is soft. So is our league. So is most places now. These guys are not though! The VHL needs these members because they added hilarious and endless hours of activity, entertainment and all of that. 1. @Bushito Is he still around? Not the league, but life or other leagues? Fearless GM. Never backed down from anyone. Was a bit of a dumbass in trade negotiations. He kind of reminds me of Trump. Not super smart, really fucking old and tried to bully his way around in trade talks. He once planned a UFC style fight somewhere in the NorthWest Territories. However, loyal GM. Good member. Added lots to the league and it's activity. 2. @BluObieZ Most probably hated him. He was a fake wannabe boat yacht director guy that constantly told people his life was better and they could kiss his ass. He was a self proclaimed VHL royal that was constantly stirring the pot. There was never a moment where he was posting and causing hell, where the rest of the league wasn't though. Was going to kick bushitos ass in the UFC fight but they both bailed out. 3. @boubabi It's a genuine ask, but why do members like this (they're gone now but did it forever), @sterling etc stick around but not recreate? Seems like the creepy start of a "young members go missing from internet hockey league" Netflix doc. You don't play the game or take part in anything, so what is it that you're actually doing here...? Boubabi spazzed out harder than ever if his players didn't win awards or get the best of the best. It was funny. It happens all the time, but this was a "freeze everything" royal rumble lol. Also French I think, so it was even more funny. 4. @Walter Fizz This little guy was constantly getting in trouble with what he was saying or doing. Just liked to toe the line and cause hell. However, similar to Robbie, he was an amazing teammate and locker room member honestly. I had both. Both nice people behind closed doors. 5. @Hogan is a trouble maker and a little smart ass. Some people claim they avoid general chat because of them and I'd kindly remind those people it's for fun, he's playing and joking and to not be so soft. Jesus. Like if this small shit bugs you, how the hell will you ever put yourself through what's required to find big success in life? I laugh so much at the shit hogan says. He's hilarious and again, behind closed doors, one of the most helpful/best people. He's honestly one of my favourites and I talk highly of them. 6. @Dil Dil is a dick. I know I said I wouldn't sugarcoat things, but I guess I did here, lol. He's a masterbaiter. He gets me all the time because he knows I'm passionate about the VHL and my roles. Calls me out on recruitment so much that I said "fuck this and quit" because of him being a dick. I don't need to put up with that bull shit. Someone else do the job. HOWEVER, he's done a lot for the league. When they want to, they can be one of the best members. He too can be hilarious and they just add a lot to the league. I wish they wouldn't be such a true asshole at times, but they're good for the league and I hope the moderation team will one day find it in their hearts to put down the 12 year old "dinosaur" nuggets, grow some skin and let back an active member. 7. @Grape is a VHLM and somehow also still finds time to bait people around the league and stir the pot. Do you find them annoying? Maybe. Last night he pinged a moderator to stir some fun and see what he could get me into. Turns out, a bit lol. If you're on the receiving ended, it can suck, but they're active. Any thread they're in they're causing posts like mad and some good little laughs too. Are they actually a piece of shit? No. I doubt it anyway. I bet if I reached out to them privately, they're cool as all hell. I've had fun chats with them throughout most channels and they add a lot to the league. 8. @rory was proofreading and figured you deserve a spot here. Basically the same as the above. Good person. Addsa. lot to the league and is incredible helpful. Can make troll like comments where you second guess if the mfer is joking or being for real. Without these players and members, the league would be black and white. It would be so boring. We already walk on eggshells and it's good to see we got some loyal servants bringing in cheap eggs to this place because with what Trump's doing, y'all better get that military grade powder food. You idiots elected one of the most stupid people possible... FOR A SECOND TIME.. and you wonder why 75% of the world hates your shitty country. I can say this here apparently but not on the Discord where no one talks and there's 5 messages a day on average lately (which are all done by the same people day after day). These members and rivalries are awesome. Seattle and Chicago hated one another in the S70's and maybe 80's Jeff thought I was an asshole, and I thought he was an asshole. The teams hated one another and it wasn't a secret. It made things fun. More important. There was blood. Probably helped Seattle always whooped his and their asses, but hey. 1,262 words, 2 weeks claim, theme week and probably some hurt feelings or perceptions about me. What's awesome is that only we see ourselves for who we are. You can have 100 people in your life and they all know or see you a little different than the rest. Have an amazing weekend, VHL. Let's keep working at growing this place and making it better

I’ve enjoyed this player so much! The goal scoring has been awesome.

Did you not claim this literally the post above? Or do I not understand how this works? lol

Toronto 2-5-1 in last 7. Hate to say it but called it lads and ladies.

6-5W v NYA 6-4W v TOR Handing out ass whooping like Trump’s handing out tariffs.

Seattle is cooooookin